Gueve's Spot

Wherever I go, a  load feels  over my mind. My weighing machine could not Spot the difference. I could never offload. Neither happiness nor sorrow could ever dissolve that. Had never felt guilty of my deeds for so long. Wish I had been good to her. Wish we had never met. Wish I were not ignorant of my deeds for long. Wish she had erased her memory of me. Wish I could get a good sleep at last. Wish any supreme being had its presence since being among the fellow humans makes me vulnerable. Empathising with people who’ve killed self. But I don't want the end for now, while life contains possibilities. I will overcome guilt because time may pass. Will I ?

  I had to lift her up. So I craddled her by her arm. Raised her to lean on my shoulder. She started to outcry. Is my spectacles scary? I thought. Maybe my face along with Spectacles clinging to it scared her. Somehow she prevailed over scare by my attempts to make her giggle. She giggled with her toothless mouth. Yet her smile was too adorable. Reminder for some artists who Relate smile’s beauty with the teeth. Slowly, her eyes started to drop Until close. Could sense her breath, She would have sensed mine. That moment,the world which seamed fast for me Slowed down a bit ’cause of an infant. The world became silent when She slept on my shoulders.

Shiny eyes, Frequent teeth emergence, and her fluffily crowded hair is the image I have of her Looked beautiful when she Makes up a face with a raised eyebrow than her smile where her teeth attracts attention. The moment I lean on her shoulders it felt like paradise, thought she is skinnier than me. She needs someone To care her. Like a child. I cared her like a friend. Her priority changed One day she cried. I was absent. But She found a shoulder to lean upon. Too late to wish but I wish it was mine.